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August, Birthdays, Life….

Every year when it gets close to August I’m always hyped up. I love my birthday, I love everyone’s birthday, I hate it when people say “I don’t celebrate my birthday”, makes me feel sad.

This post is going to be me rambling on how weird August has been.

The year started great, started an internship at the Rivers State University Teaching Hospital after waiting a whole year at home.

I made new friends, enemies too๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚, I hold a mean grudge, a bad habit.

We are slowly coming to the end of the one-year training and it’s been great.

August came and first, my laptop’s screen broke, very tragic. I hate unplanned expenses and I’m the queen of budgeting.

My friend whom I have worked with, within every unit since January fell ill on his birthday and in the space of two weeks, everything went haywire. An amazing man, I must say, makes me ask why bad things happen to good people?

Kept crying like a fool, honestly, I could cry for a living, hard girl like me๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

My birthday came, I was in-between feelings. I wanted so much to be happy but I felt like I was committing a crime, how could I be this happy while my friend is so ill he can’t move or breathe without mechanical support.

Every year my birthday gets more beautiful, I mean the love this year and the gifts were overwhelming. (Thank you everyone!โค๏ธ)

Regardless, it was a bit sad. Then my best girls dad was critically ill, she sent me a message “Naza, I’m scared”. My babe is never scared and I honestly didn’t feel good.

I spent my birthday happy, crying and praying. Quite a weird mix.๐Ÿ˜…

Hormonal imbalance is a mean situation too like, give sis a break universe. I have been breaking out and it’s not funny, massive, painful pimples, all my skincare ‘in the mud’.

I have lost the zeal for a lot of things but I’m putting in more effort to not be overwhelmed by all the happenings. I’m also learning a lot about myself.

I’m an emotional being despite my thinking I’m not, I get so affected by close friends who have problems. I tend to also cry more than the bereaved. This is so not good and I need a balance.

How do you balance friendships and being present for your friends in times of need?

This has been an event-filled month but I’m staying positive, promised God I would do that. I’m reading You should see me in a crown by Leah Johnson for the book club. I’m putting this here because I want to be more expressive and not keep everything in my head, which tends to stress me a lot.

I got a gift of a book voucher from my best girls๐Ÿฅฐ, we should be starting our podcast soon, sadly we still haven’t chosen a name and haven’t defeated procrastination.๐Ÿ˜…

Say a prayer for my friends today, sadly, my friend lost her dad, despite everything and my other friend is still ill. We organised a fundraiser so if you can donate or share we would appreciate it!

Hopefully, next year’s birthday is better than this year’s, I have decided to not hate my birthday month, I have understood that life happens and it will not always be rosy.

Cheers to 23 and a beautiful year with more lessons to learn!